I’m so dependent of other’s thoughts about me, it often kills me…

but anyway today I’m happy, I know some people I love, love me too ^^

There are many things, that are so usual, so common, so…normal in everyday’s life, and that when I think of them, I’m wondering why it’s so weird…

Fears…all the time
Of today, of tomorrow, of my future, of the other’s thoughts about me.

Let’s walk peacefully, and see what the fate will show me…

I’ve always been afraid of death…it disturbs me whenever I think of it. Where do you go ? What’s is going to happen after it ? Will I be aware I am dead ? I’m so afraid of being just an empty shell, just lying and that couldn’t even think and know I’m dead…
Even when I was a child, at the age of 5 or 6, I already thought of these questions, and it obsessed me all the time…

Well now thanks god, I don’t think of it, but whenever some things remind me of it, it goes again.

Left guy : “look over here”
*flash*
Right guy : “look over here”
*flash*

*repeat it 300 times*

Left guy + Right guy : “Look over here !”

-_-“